We are in need!

So I am posting this in a very emotional state so please forgive me. It seems as though I have taken all the stress that I can handle. So everyone knows that we have our house in Roy that needs to sell and then we also are living out of state in WY. That's no seceret. Our problem that we are facing now is that we don't have any money to be paying for two houses any more. We love where we live but hate the house that we live in, it's too small for our family and the mice I can't stand. We are basically accepting the fact that we aren't going to be able to buy the house that we want to since the deadline for that is July 5 at 10:27 a.m. and we have no prospects for a buyer or a renter.

We are now starting to face the fact that maybe we aren't going to be able to stay together as a family. Ben needs to stay her for work and well we don't want to go bankrupt either. I can't stand to be away from Ben the 8 hours that he has to work so the thought of us living in different states is tearing me up. Everytime the thought passes through my mind I start crying. I just hate feeling so helpless. I couldn't of made it through the last 4 months on my own so I am glad that we have been here with Ben but something is going to have to change.

I just wish that I knew what the Lord wanted us to learn so we could learn it and move on. We have really wanted to lay our roots down somewhere and to stop moving so much. We told the girls when we moved into this house that we would only have one more move after this and then we would live there for a long time. It looks as though we aren't going to be able to keep that promise to the girls.

So if you know anyone that is looking to buy a house or even rent one please send them our way. Britt if your sister and husband want to buy it as an investment property or you can convince Jared to move to Ut. Meg if you and Mike want to buy a house so that when you finally do get to come back to the states you have some where to live. At this point we are willing to do just about anything to be able to stay together as a family here. This is my emotional break down at the moment.

I went to go and check on the girls the other night and found Alex's bed empty. It seems as though Alex has taken to sleep walking. She does it quite often and I am wondering if I should talk to her doctor about it. If you can see by the picture on top Alex and Aubrey are in the same bed. That's because Alex climbed into Aubrey's bed.

Ben went out to mow the lawn and Alex asked if she could go out to play. I didn't see a problem with that so I said she could. When I looked out to see what she was doing I saw her following every step that Ben took. It reminded me of a duckling following their parent. It was super cute.

Ben's bike

We have decided to help save some money we would buy Ben a bike. It's nothing big just 249cc's but it helps. Instead of him getting 20mpg he gets 60+ and it takes less than $10 to fill his whole tank. He does look for excuses to go out and ride it. He is taking it to work now but before he started doing that he would ask every night if he could go for a ride. As I mentioned before he tried to teach me to ride and I ended up with the second most nasty bruise of my life. The first I got bridge jumping and splunking (thanks Britt). Any how I have told Ben that if he gets hurt in any way riding his bike if the crash doesn't kill him then I will. We got a really great price for it. If anyone is wanting to look into getting a bike you can go to the Honda website and his model is the Rebel. We thought that the insurance was going to be way expensive but it only cost $4 extra per month.

Hubby Tag

1. What's his name? Benjamin Carl Stewart
2.How long have you been together? 6 years this month our 6th wedding anniversary is in August.
3.How long did you date? Well we met on June 2 and we were engaged on June 8 and married on August 8.
4.Who eats more? I think I do but Ben will never admit it.
5.Who said "I love you" first? Ben after we got engaged.
6.Who is taller? Ben
7.Who sings better? We're both not very good
8.Who is smarter? I think we are pretty equal with the smarts
9.Who does the laundry? We both do it but I do most of the folding.
10.Who does the dishes? I take care of it mostly but Ben does do a great job at helping out.
11.Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? Me but Ben and I will steal the other persons spot if they get up in the middle of the night.
12.Who pays the bills? Ben does, I would be in trouble if anything ever happened to him.
13.Who mows the lawn? We both do but since I am home I normally do it more. But it's all good because we both love to do it.
14.Who cooks dinner? Both, it depends on if I have the time
15.Who drives when you are together? Ben mostly and I manage the kids.
16.Who is more stubborn? We both are stubborn but we also know when to give into the other person.
17.Who kissed who first? Ben kissed me and then was out of the car before I knew what happened.
18.Who asked who out first? Ben asked me, actually before we went on a date Ben was planning major trips with me.
19.Who proposed? That's a long story, first I think I said we should get married and then Benn asked formally.
20.Who is more sensitive? Yeah that's me all the way.
21.Who has more friends? Me, Ben knows more people but I have more friends.
22.Who has more siblings? Ben, he's #8 of 9 kids
23.Who wears the pants in the family? We wear them equally. Is there any other way to have it. We do a good job of working together. That's one thing I love about our relationship.

Now I tag Britt, Mindy, and Ruth.
So ladies just answer the questions on your own blog.

Why we love it here

The other morning this is what we woke up to. You can see the mountains peaking over the clouds. It's just about every day when I look across the valley from our house and am taken back in the beauty of our area. This picture doesn't do justice to what we actually saw. We were told by some of our friends that since it's so beautiful that people will drive through for the first time and will pull over and buy land here. Really I haven't seen anywhere that has been as beautiful as this. I know I talked poorly of the cold weather but now that it has stopped snowing here all the time and it's getting into the 70's I just love it even more. But even with all the snow it's like nothing I have ever seen. And most of you know that Ben and I have moved LOTS. The only other place that came close to being as beautiful was in Washington and it was when you drove from the main land to Anacortes island. No matter how many times we drove that I was always taken back by the beauty of it all.

I HATE MICE!

So as some of you know we have had problems with mice since we have moved into the house that we are renting. We have bait set around the house and we also have traps. Now since we have been here I am normally the lucky one that get's to see them running across the floor. The other night around 4 in the morning I was woken up by a squeeling mouse that had ran to a place near my side of the bed. Just when the mouse was running around Azlie woke up for a feeding. I asked Ben to get her and he grummbled about it. I then informed him there was no way I was going to be putting my feet down till I knew where that mouse was. I am glad that I waited and he got her because as I was feeding Azlie I saw the mouse run from where I would have put my foot.

Now I wish that would of been the last of the mice problems for the week but then we started to notice some foul oder in our room. Ben finally figured out that it was a dead mouse so he went on the hunt for it and found it behind our hot water heater.

Then this morning I walked out of our room and saw that one of our chairs in the living room wasn't where I liked it so I went to move it and looked down to see a mouse laying on it's back dead. Ben's comment to me was that it was freshly dead. Great huh. I am just glad that he was here to pick it up because I hate touching mice for any reason. I am also that the girls didn't find it and try to pick it up. They are so helpful sometimes. I would really like to move from this house and not have to worry about seeing mice run around.

Also along the same lines of not wanting to live in this house. I have never lived somewhere that there are so many creepy crawly things around. I spend my days killing all sorts of bugs. I think we could feed a small country with all the bugs that are killed in our house.

Yeah, I am smarter than plastic

FHE! So much fun. Ben looks for any way to have a campfire. The girls got to have their first banana boats which went over pretty well and then they just love somores. Cecilia wanted to roast the marshmellows but she did't want to eat them.

Azlie objecting to her outfit. This is the last time she wore 3-6 mo cloths. but I have to say she looks so cute even if she is protesting. Can you believe she's not even 3 months yet. She is heavier than most the babies under 1 in our ward. Oh and to Britt I don't know how I get all these big kids and yours are little.

Ben was looking really tired yestereday and I asked if he wanted to take a nap. He told me he was good and a couple of minutes later while he was taking care of Azlie this is what I found. Both of them passed out.

This is what we do on rainy days. Ben thinks that I am crazy when I do this to the dog. I on the other hand think this is one of the most funny things. Watching a dog walk around in little kids cloths what's better.

I hate computers

So I know that a blog isn't any fun with out pictures and so I tried to upload some pictures and for some reason my computer wouldn't let me. We had a great fathers day. We bought Ben a motorcycle and a bunch of other stuff. He tried to teach me how to ride but all I ended up with was a nasty bruse. Yup I layed the bike down on it's side. Ben wanted to know if I wanted to try again and I quickly said no due to fear and the pain that I already had. I am still hoping to get some pictures uploaded soon so maybe this wouldn't be so boring.

Summer is never coming

I am still surprized at how cold the weather is. While in Ut last week we were so spoiled to have warm weather. It really made coming home to Wy that much harder. One thing I will say is that as soon as we drove into Ut last friday it really didn't feel like home. It was the first time for me that I have felt like that. The great thing was that when we got back to Wy everything just felt right. Now all we need is to have our house sell.

So we have beel lucky enough to have my mom come into town. She hadn't had an opportunity to see Azlie yet but we are thankful that she has been able to come now and see Azlie while she was still small. Not that she's that small any more. I am thinking that we are going to have to put her in the 6-9 mo cloths. She gets all angry when she's in her jammies and they are tight around her feet. She is actually growing faster than Cecilia did at her age. A two and half month old in 6-9 mo cloths. Ben and I have big babies.

Good News, Bad News

So I always get the choice of good news or bad news I always choose the bad news first so that I have something to look forward to. So here's the bad news. Last week Ben's great Aunt passed away in her sleep. It was sort of a shock since she was doing well the day before. At the same time the whole family took comfort in the fact that she has now been reunited with her husband she lost almost 30 years ago. We were able to travel down to St. George to be there for the services. It was really nice and it was so nice to see family. I am always amazed at how much family Ben has.

Now the good news. On the way home from St. George we got a call from our agent and said that we had an offer. We were unable to accept since they low balled us. We countered with the absolute lowest that we could possibly go and now we are just waiting to hear back. We are hoping to hear something by the morning. Also the house was showed again today so that would be really nice to have two offers. We are so blessed by the Lord.